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Heart Chakra

This is the sacred center of your being, where compassion becomes connections, and love becomes liberation. It is the bridge between body and spirit, self and other, Earth and Ether. Here you remember that true healing doesn’t come from fixing…it comes from opening. This is where grief becomes grace, where forgiveness flows, and where the courage to love lives again. To lead with an undefended heart is one of the bravest acts of all.

AHO ASE AMEN

Core Themes and Healing Focus 

The Heart Chakra, or Anahata, is the sacred center of love, compassion, and relational truth. It is the energetic bridge between the grounded reality of the lower chakras and the visionary awareness of the upper ones. This is where you begin to ask, “What would it look like to lead with love… even when it hurts?” and “What if opening my heart was my greatest protection, not my greatest risk?” When this chakra is balanced, you move through life with tenderness and discernment, able to give and receive love without losing yourself.

Energetically and biologically, the heart is connected to the lungs, chest, upper back, and thymus; the seat of immunity. It governs breath, circulation, and coherence across your body’s systems. But it also governs your ability to metabolize emotion: grief, longing, joy, betrayal, devotion. When the heart is guarded or collapsed, you may feel disconnected, heavy, numb, overly self-sacrificing, or emotionally reactive. Healing here often means revisiting heartbreaks and relational wounds, not to relive them, but to release the Heart Wall armor they left behind.

This week, we enter the heart. Not to bypass the pain, but to alchemize it. Our focus is on reconnecting with the sacred intelligence of love: not just romantic love, but the steady, soul-deep love that arises from truth, resonance, and self-acceptance. We explore what it means to soften without losing power, to feel without drowning, and to open again after hurt.

We explore what it means to choose love as an energetic frequency, not an emotional reaction. You are invited to remember that your heart was never meant to stay open all the time, but it was meant to stay alive. Healing this center is not something to force, it’s something to allow.

You are not here to perform love. You are here to become it.

Location: Center of the chest, over the sternum

Element: Air

Color: Green (and sometimes pink)

Developmental Age: 21–28 years

Sacred Themes: Love, Grief, Forgiveness, Connection, Compassion, Acceptance, Integration

I am the breath that knows no boundary. Let me pass through the chambers of your heart, clearing the grief you have stored and the love you were afraid to feel. You were never meant to hold it all… only to let it move.

- -The Winds

When The Heart Chakra is Balanced 

  • You love without losing yourself

  • You feel deep compassion; for yourself and others

  • Grief has room to move; it doesn’t calcify

  • You trust intimacy and vulnerability

  • You can receive as deeply as you give

  • Boundaries are born from self-love, not punishment

When The Heart Chakra is Blocked or WoundeD

Wounding here often stems from betrayal, abandonment, loss, heartbreak, conditional love, and inherited ancestral grief.

Symptoms might include:

  • Walls around the heart, numbness, difficulty trusting others

  • People-pleasing, over giving, or collapsing in relationships

  • Holding on to resentment, unforgiveness, or grief that won’t move

  • Loneliness even when not alone

  • Tightness in chest, shallow breath, high blood pressure, immune issues, heart issues, lung cancer

  • Fear of being seen, loved, or fully received

I was not born graceful, I became so.

Through awkward becoming, through waters of ache and awe, through remembering myself in full.

I do not rush. I do not chase. I glide because I trust the current.

When the world is chaotic, I return to the still lake within.

When the heart is heavy, I do not sink…I soften.

My medicine is the alchemy of grief into elegance, pain into poise, longing into luminous devotion.

You do not have to fix your heart; you only have to return to it.

Float there. Even if it trembles. Especially if it does.

The ones who’ve known the deepest sorrow carry the most radiant peace.

Not because They were spared, but because they learned how to stay soft

without losing themselves.

I remember who I am in the quiet.

So will you.

-Swan Medicine

Bringing Healing to This Chakra

Healing the Heart Chakra is not about forcing yourself to love more or trust faster, it is about restoring energetic coherence to the very center of your being. Anahata, the fourth chakra, is the bridge between the lower and upper chakras, linking the physical self (root, sacral, solar plexus) with the spiritual self (throat, third eye, crown). When balanced, this chakra generates compassion, empathy, forgiveness, and emotional equilibrium. But when wounded, it can create patterns of shutdown, bitterness, codependency, or chronic overgiving.

Much of the pain stored here stems from relational trauma: betrayal, abandonment, emotional neglect, or the loss of love; either sudden or prolonged. These experiences register somatically, often leading to constriction in the chest, shallow breathing, and a sense of grief or loneliness that becomes embedded in the nervous system. In response, we may build heartwalls to avoid vulnerability or perform love in ways that seek validation instead of connection. Heart chakra healing asks us to unwind these adaptations and reestablish a felt sense of safety within the field of relationship… starting with ourselves.

Because Anahata is associated with air, breathwork is one of the most direct healing tools for this center. Our breath reveals how open we are to life, how willing we are to feel, and how much space we allow for our own experience.

Are you holding your breath when emotions rise?

Do you tighten your chest in conflict?

Do you shrink your voice or downplay your needs to maintain peace?

These are signs that the heart center is not being fully expressed.

To heal this chakra is to relearn authentic emotional expression without fear of abandonment. It’s not about being “nicer” or “softer;” it’s about becoming honest. Many of us were taught to equate love with self-sacrifice, to withhold our needs, or to forgive too quickly in order to keep the peace. But true heart-centered living is not self-erasure. It is living from a place of integration, where compassion includes yourself, and boundaries are a form of care.

Heart healing may include grief rituals, breath-based practices, reconnecting to joy, reprocessing old heartbreaks, or redefining love on your own terms. This chakra is also directly linked to the thymus gland and immune system, reminding us that our emotional boundaries and immune boundaries are not separate. What you let in… and what you choose to release… deeply affects your physical vitality. Forgiveness is powerful, but it must never come at the cost of your safety.

This week, we’ll be focusing on nervous system regulation, emotional truth-telling, and subtle body techniques that strengthen the energetic field around the heart.

Through this, we remember that the heart is not just where we feel, it is where we align. It is the compass that reconnects our body and soul.

HEART CHAKRA RITUAL

Reclaiming the Sacred Center

A somatic and breath-based ritual for emotional healing and energetic coherence.

Length: 20–30 minutes

Tools: A quiet space, optional: rose or cedar essential oil, a green crystal (rose quartz, emerald, or malachite), journal, blanket

Optional Music: 528Hz or slow drumbeat (5–7 bpm)

Step 1: Prepare the Field (2–3 minutes)

  • Sit upright or lie down with shoulders open.

  • Place one hand on your heart, one on your belly.

  • Inhale through the nose, exhale with a sigh.

  • Set your intention:
    “I am here to reconnect to the truth of my heart. I am ready to release what has armored me. I am safe to feel.”

(Optional: Apply rose or cedar oil over the heart center in a clockwise motion.)

Step 2: Coherence Breathwork (5 minutes)

  • Inhale for a count of 5

  • Exhale for a count of 5

  • Repeat for 3–5 minutes

Visualize breath flowing in and out of your heart. Imagine green light pulsing with each inhale.

Optional mantras on the exhale:

  • “I am safe to feel.”

  • “I am worthy of love.”

Step 3: Somatic Heart Release (8–10 minutes)

A. Tapping (2 minutes):

Gently tap your chest, sternum, and collarbones with fingertips to awaken the heart and thymus gland.

B. Sound + Movement (3–4 minutes):

Begin humming on the exhale. Let the vibration move through your chest. Move your arms or body intuitively. Shake, stretch, cry- allow whatever needs to move to move.

C. Hold + Drop (2–3 minutes):

Place both hands firmly on your heart. Breathe deeply and press into the body with intention. Whisper:

“I do not need to carry this anymore.”

Visualize weight releasing into the earth.

Step 4: Integration + Receptivity (5–7 minutes)

Say aloud or silently:

“I forgive myself for abandoning my heart. I welcome all parts of me back home. I am ready to feel safe, seen, and whole within myself.”

Rest in silence. Let anything rise.

Step 5: Journal Prompt

Write for 3 minutes:

“My heart wants me to know…”

Let your heart speak freely.

Repeat for 7 days for deeper integration.

The emotional & spiritual Integration of

the Heart Chakra

The emotional body of the Heart Chakra is layered and complex. It carries not only our personal experiences of connection and rupture, but often the grief, longing, and protection mechanisms inherited from our family line. When this center is open and balanced, we experience reciprocity in relationships, emotional steadiness, and access to authentic expression. When blocked or overactive, we may swing between overgiving and withdrawal, numbness and overattachment. This week, we pause the pendulum; not to force healing, but to create space for honest witnessing.

The spiritual frequency of Anahata is coherence; where what we feel, say, and do are aligned. Love, in this context, is not a reward for self-abandonment. It’s a state of being we reclaim when we stop bending ourselves into versions that are easier for others to digest. Integration here is not about becoming soft or always saying yes… it’s about becoming true.

A coherent heart is not free of grief, but it is free of distortion. It tells the truth. It beats in time with your integrity.

Somatically, heart chakra healing begins when we bring breath and awareness back to the chest, shoulders, and spine… the places where grief hides, the places we unconsciously brace. Emotionally, it requires us to revisit the question: What does safety feel like when love is present? Spiritually, it’s about being able to hold joy and pain in the same container, without forcing resolution.

This week is an invitation to listen to the heart without demanding immediate answers. To soften without collapsing. To explore the possibility that you are already enough, even when you’re still healing.

This week examine these questions

Where have I confused love with self-sacrifice?

What emotional truth have I been withholding in order to keep the peace?

What does emotional safety actually feel like in my body?

What part of me is asking to be held with more compassion this week?

Heart Chakra Support Tools

Heart Chakra herbs are all centered around restoring emotional balance, protecting energetic boundaries and gently opening the heart to love, grief and connection

Hawthorn (Crataegus monogyna.) The quintessential heart medicine. Hawthorn nourishes and strengthens the physical heart muscle, improves circulation, and supports emotional boundaries. Energetically, it’s a protector, wrapping the heart in thorns so the soft center can safely open.

Rose (Rosa ) Rose is the ultimate heart-opener. She softens grief, encourages vulnerability, and restores a sense of beauty and self-love. She’s both tender and fierce, teaching us how to hold compassion and boundaries at the same time.

Motherwort (Leonurus cardiaca) Known as “lion-hearted,” Motherwort calms heart palpitations and soothes emotional distress. It’s especially helpful for releasing anxiety, heartbreak, and the fear of not being enough. She helps you reclaim steadiness in the face of chaos.

Linden (Tilia.) A gentle, calming herb for those with tight chests, shallow breathing, or lingering emotional pain. Linden soothes the nervous system and opens the heart to love and trust, especially after betrayal or loss.

Passionflower (Passiflora incarnata) Supports emotional overwhelm, circular thinking, and over-identification with suffering. Passionflower gently quiets the mind so the heart can be heard again. It’s especially helpful for those who suppress emotion through logic or over-analysis.

Yarrow (Achillea millefolium) An energetic boundary setter. Yarrow helps the overly porous heart — the empath, the over-giver — restore sovereignty. It allows love to flow without depletion, shielding the emotional body while healing old wounds. (now you understand why I carry this one everywhere)

Tulsi (Ocimum sanctum / Holy Basil) A sacred adaptogen that uplifts the heart and balances the stress response. Tulsi promotes clarity, spiritual connection, and joy, making it a beautiful ally for those recovering from grief, exhaustion, or emotional heaviness.

Bleeding Heart (Dicentra formosa) More of an energetic flower essence than a bulk herb, Bleeding Heart helps release attachments and codependent patterns. It teaches that love doesn’t require clinging, it asks for freedom and trust.

Cacao (Theobroma cacao) A powerful heart-opening plant used in ritual and ceremony. Cacao increases circulation to the heart and brain, evokes emotional intimacy, and allows suppressed emotions to surface gently. It reminds us that pleasure and presence are sacred.

The Deeper Heart Work

  • The Heart as the Alchemical Vessel of Ancestral Pain

    There is a sacred intelligence in the way the body stores what the soul and bloodline could not yet digest.

    In ancestral healing, we often look to the Root Chakra as the seat of inherited patterns; the structural imprint of survival adaptations passed down through the nervous system. This is where hypervigilance, scarcity, and inherited fear get etched into the very framework of the body. The Sacral Chakra, in turn, holds the emotional consequences of those patterns; the grief of never feeling safe enough to feel, the rage of stolen autonomy, the numbness that comes when emotional expression would have endangered the family system.

    But it is the Heart Chakra; tender, luminous, unprotected… that ends up feeling what the generations before us couldn’t bear to. The heart becomes the alchemical vessel through which inherited wounds must pass in order to be released. This is where the grief finally swells, the forgiveness begins, and the ancestral armor cracks open. The body remembers through the heart.

    Epigenetics and the Inheritance of Grief

    Modern science is beginning to confirm what mystics and medicine people have always known: trauma lives in the body, and it is passed down. Studies in epigenetics reveal that the effects of trauma; such as war, famine, genocide, or chronic emotional suppression, leave measurable marks on our DNA expression. These markers are not mutations in the gene itself, but rather chemical “tags” that alter how genes are turned on or off. These tags are often passed from parent to child, especially through the maternal line.

    And where do these tags often activate?

    In tissues rich in nervous, cardiovascular, and immune function… the domain of the Heart Chakra. The thymus gland, located just above the heart, governs immune development and is highly responsive to stress in utero and early childhood. Cortisol patterns, shaped by a mother’s trauma, directly affect a fetus’s future emotional regulation. The heart tissue itself has been shown to contain neurons capable of memory, suggesting that the heart quite literally “remembers” pain.

    The Inherited Pain of the Unspoken

    So many of us carry grief that isn’t entirely ours. Grief that seems to have no origin. Longing that lives in the bones. Guilt that surfaces in moments of joy. These emotional residues often stem from unprocessed pain in the bloodline, stories that were never spoken, losses never grieved, betrayals never atoned for. The heart becomes the site of emotional inheritance, and it often whispers before it screams: a tightening in the chest, a shortness of breath, mysterious palpitations, autoimmune flare-ups, or a deep loneliness despite outward connection. When these sensations are ignored or pathologized, the body has no choice but to hold tighter. But when we listen, truly listen, we realize we are not just healing for ourselves. We are feeling for those who could not, and in doing so, we become the medicine.

    The Heart as the Bridge Between Lineage and Light

    The heart sits midway between the earthly and the divine, between the body’s survival instincts and the soul’s highest calling. It is the bridge. And like all bridges, it carries the weight of what lies on either side.

    From below, the root cries out: “Do not forget where you came from.”

    From above, the crown whispers: “Remember who you truly are.”

    The heart listens to both. It weeps and opens. It cracks and expands. And in its courageous softening, it begins the transmutation of trauma into compassion, of grief into beauty, of survival into sacred legacy.

    To walk the path of the heart is to honor the pain of your ancestors without being bound by it. It is to offer your own body as a vessel through which old pain may rise, be felt, and be released with reverence. You are not broken, you are the holy forge.

    Healing Begins Where the Armor Cracks

    Ancestral healing cannot happen without the heart. Not just the metaphorical heart, but the beating, breaking, blooming organ in your chest. This is why heart-based practices such as breathwork, grief rituals, somatic therapy, and loving-kindness meditation are so powerful: they restore emotional circulation to areas long frozen by fear. From a spiritual perspective, the heart is the throne of unconditional love, but it is also the place where personal boundaries are reforged. It teaches us how to love without losing ourselves, how to feel without drowning, how to soften without collapsing. The more we open the heart, the more clearly we can discern what is ours and what we’ve inherited; and that discernment is the gateway to true liberation.

  • Understanding The Heart Wall

    A Heart Wall is an energetic barrier the body creates around the heart space to protect it from pain, betrayal, grief, or emotional overwhelm. In energetic and emotional healing modalities, especially those like The Emotion Code (Dr. Bradley Nelson) Heart Walls are seen as literal layers of unprocessed emotions that the subconscious mind stacks like bricks to safeguard the heart.

    This isn’t just metaphor. When the body endures trauma or prolonged emotional distress, it will often redirect unresolved feelings; especially those too intense or unsafe to fully process in the moment into the area of the chest. These emotions are then stored, unconsciously, as protective layers. The purpose is survival. The cost is disconnection.

    How Heart Walls Show Up

    Heart Walls often show up not as obvious blockages, but as subtle and persistent patterns in our emotional, relational, and even physical lives. They may sound like:

    “I want to love, but I just can’t fully feel it.”

    “I keep attracting emotionally unavailable partners.”

    “I don’t trust anyone, even when they haven’t done anything wrong.”

    “I can’t cry. I feel numb.”

    “I feel like I’m not really in my body or heart.”

    Physically, they may present as tightness in the chest, shallow breathing, mysterious heart palpitations, immune dysfunction (linked to the thymus gland), or chronic lung and upper back tension. Emotionally, people with Heart Walls often feel disconnected from joy, unable to receive love, or stuck in protective hyper-independence. Over time, Heart Walls can affect everything from romantic intimacy to spiritual receptivity, because they are built to keep pain out, but end up keeping love out, too.

    The Science of Emotional Armoring

    From a physiological standpoint, the body’s limbic system, especially the amygdala and hippocampus, governs how emotional memories are processed and stored. When a painful emotional event isn’t fully metabolized; whether from childhood trauma, ancestral grief, or heartbreak, it can become “stuck” in the nervous system.

    This often results in chronic sympathetic activation: a body that is braced for impact, even when no danger is present. In response, the chest muscles tighten, the vagus nerve becomes dysregulated, and breath is restricted. Over time, this becomes the foundation for a somatic Heart Wall… a pattern of emotional armoring rooted in both neurology and epigenetics.

    Furthermore, heart-centered biofield studies (such as those from the HeartMath Institute) show that the electromagnetic field of the heart can contract in response to fear and emotional suppression. This energetic contraction mirrors the physical tension literally shrinking our capacity to receive, radiate, and feel.

    Why the Heart Wall Was Built

    It’s important to remember: Heart Walls are not dysfunctions. They are deep acts of protection. They form when the heart cannot safely hold the emotions it’s exposed to, or when the external environment makes vulnerability unsafe. For many people, the Heart Wall was built during early attachment wounds; moments when love was conditional, or connection felt dangerous. For others, the Heart Wall formed after specific heartbreaks, losses, betrayals, or ancestral burdens too heavy to carry. Some of us didn’t build our Heart Walls alone, they were shaped by generations who didn’t have the luxury of feeling, and passed down survival patterns instead.

    What’s most profound is that the Heart itself often asks for the wall to come down; through dreams, through breakdowns, through inexplicable longing. That ache to feel more? That’s not weakness. That’s the wisdom of your heart trying to come home to itself.

    How We Begin to Move the Wall

    Moving a Heart Wall is not about force. You cannot tear it down; you must tend it down. This process happens in layers and in right timing. Some of the most effective tools include:

    -Somatic practices like breathwork, vagus nerve toning, and chest-opening movement

    -Energy work, Reiki, or Emotion Code sessions that release stored frequency

    -Therapeutic grief rituals, where you safely express long-held sorrow

    -Loving-kindness meditations that rewire the nervous system to allow softness

    -Daily touch practices, like placing your hand on your heart and whispering truths to it: “It is safe to feel. I’m not abandoning you.”

    And most powerfully: deep, conscious relationships with safe others. Heart Walls dissolve fastest in the presence of co-regulation; when someone stays while you feel, when vulnerability is met with care, not chaos. We cannot heal relational trauma in isolation.

    You don’t have to do this all at once. Just begin by listening.

Crystals for Stability & ProtectioN

These crystals align with the Heart Chakra because they support emotional healing, restore energetic balance, and create a safe container for both vulnerability and love

  • Emerald: Known as the “Stone of the Heart” in classical traditions. Emerald restores hope, invites unconditional love, and strengthens emotional wisdom. It opens the heart with clarity and protects against emotional distortion or manipulation.

  • Rose Quartz:Softens the emotional body, encourages forgiveness, and helps rebuild trust in love. A foundational heart stone that radiates gentle compassion.

  • Rhodonite: Balances the heart chakra by grounding intense emotion and supporting healing from betrayal, heartbreak, or codependent patterns.

  • Malachite: Draws out stored grief and energetic residue while offering strong protection. Helps transform pain into personal power.

  • Green Aventurine: Calms emotional turbulence and invites healthy vulnerability. Excellent for stabilizing the heart after a period of emotional stress.

  • Pink Tourmaline: Supports emotional receptivity and helps heal abandonment wounds. Gently reopens the heart to connection without losing self

Sound Tools for HEart Chakra Healing

The Heart Chakra (Anahata) responds deeply to vibration. Sound can open emotional blockages, regulate breath, and restore energetic coherence. Use these sound tools to gently activate, soften, and stabilize the heart center.

Bija Mantra – YAM (pronounced “YAHM”) is t he seed sound for the Heart Chakra. Chanting “YAM” creates vibration through the chest and helps dissolve emotional tension. Use: Chant on long exhales for 3–5 minutes with hands over heart.

Solfeggio Frequency – 639 Hz Associated with love, forgiveness, and relational healing. Listening to music at 639 Hz supports heart-brain coherence and opens the emotional field. Use: Play during meditation, journaling, or energy work.

Singing Bowl – Note F Singing bowls tuned to the note F correspond directly to Anahata. They stimulate breath, regulate energy flow, and bring the nervous system into balance. Use: Play near chest or while seated in meditation.

Humming (Bhramari Breath) Humming activates the vagus nerve and soothes the emotional body. The vibration in the sternum opens the heart gently and calms anxiety. Use: Inhale slowly, exhale with a low hum. Repeat for 1–2 minutes.

Voice Toning + Heart Words Toning vowel sounds like “AH” or “UH” brings awareness and release to the heart. Pair with affirmations like “I am safe,” “I am loved,” or “I belong” to rewire heart-based beliefs. Use: Tone on the exhale while placing one hand on the chest.

Color TherapY

The Heart Chakra is traditionally associated with the color green, symbolizing growth, balance, renewal, and the life force of nature. Green carries a stabilizing frequency that helps recalibrate the emotional body, regulate the nervous system, and restore a sense of safety in the heart. It invites us to expand, to soften, and to connect with others and ourselves from a place of wholeness rather than fear.

Pink, while not a classical chakra color, is a gentle companion to green in heart work. Pink brings in the frequency of tenderness, unconditional love, compassion, and emotional vulnerability. Together, green and pink form a spectrum, from the structured resilience of green to the open softness of pink; and both can be used intentionally to heal and balance the heart center. Whether through clothing, visualization, environment, or ritual, color is a subtle yet powerful way to re-pattern how we relate to love, connection, and emotional presence.

Ways to Work with Green & Pink for Heart Healing

  • Wear green or pink clothing, scarves, or jewelry to bring these frequencies into your auric field.

  • Use green or pink bedsheets or pillows to infuse your resting space with heart-centered energy.

  • Surround yourself with plants (green) or fresh flowers (pink) to invite nature’s heart medicine into your space.

  • Light green or pink candles during ritual, meditation, or journaling to anchor your intention into the space.

  • Visualize a green or pink light filling your chest during breathwork or sound practices.

  • Eat green or pink foods (like leafy greens, rose tea, strawberries, or watermelon) with gratitude and heart presence.

  • Meditate with green or pink crystals placed over the heart (such as emerald, jade, rose quartz, or rhodonite).

Animal Totems

Dove: Universally associated with peace, compassion, and divine love. Dove brings the soft, receptive energy of forgiveness and reminds us that stillness is a form of power.

Deer: Represents gentleness, sensitivity, and quiet strength. Deer teaches us to move through emotional terrain with presence and tenderness, honoring our own vulnerability without shame.

Horse: Embodies freedom, loyalty, and emotional strength. Horse helps us lead from the heart while staying grounded, especially in relationships where boundaries and devotion must coexist.

Dolphin: Linked to joy, heart-brain coherence, and emotional intelligence. Dolphin uses sound and breath to connect; reflecting the role of rhythm and play in heart healing.

Dog: A symbol of loyalty, protection and unconditional love. Dog medicine supports the development of emotional safety and teaches us how to love with both presence and discernment.

Journaling Prompts for Heart Chakra Exploration

  1. Where in my life have I withheld love or truth to avoid rejection or conflict?

  2. What does it feel like in my body when my heart is open… and what does it feel like when it’s closed?

  3. What early experiences shaped the way I give and receive love?

  4. What version of “love” was modeled for me, and how has that impacted my relationships?

  5. What am I still grieving, and have I given myself permission to fully feel it?

  6. Where am I over-giving in order to feel needed, validated, or safe?

  7. What boundaries would help my heart feel more protected and supported right now?

  8. What does emotional safety mean to me, and how can I cultivate it internally?

  9. How have I confused being “nice” or “forgiving” with abandoning myself?

  10. If I let my heart speak freely, without fear of consequence, what would it say today?

Oracle Closing Prayer

I have loved from the edges, afraid to be seen,

gave more than I had, stayed soft to stay clean.

I’ve called it devotion - this ache in my chest -

but it’s time now to lay my false offerings to rest.

This heart is not currency. It is not a cage.

It does not exist to absorb others’ rage.

It does not owe penance for someone else’s storm.

It does not need to fracture to keep others warm.

I forgive the defenses I once had to build,

the numbness I wore, the feelings I stilled.

I bless every closing that kept me alive,

but I am not here just to cope - I came to thrive.

So I open, not foolish - but honest and brave.

I open to healing that ripples and stays.

To breath in the grief I once buried so deep,

and breath out the silence that lulled it to sleep.

Let the armor now soften, the sorrow unwind.

Let the voice of my longing no longer be kind.

Let it be true. Let it be bold.

Let it speak of the stories I never told.

May I love with a spine. May I give without bleed.

May I trust that I’m worthy without being in need.

And may all that was taken or silenced or bent

be returned to my heart as a holy lament.

This closing is opening. This ending, a start.

I walk now with presence…

a whole, sovereign heart.

-Oracle Code 5454